For most of my youth, I believed that a massive amount of wealth and important job positions were the basic essentials to a good life.
I was taught in school that it was important to have a great resume and a stunning CV, filled with academic accomplishments, internships and jobs at large financial institutions, with this wealth of experience neatly shown off in bulleted points – to impress the person whose hands my CV would eventually land into.
I was told that perception is often greater than reality, and learnt how to market myself through speaking confidently, dressing sharp and hanging out with the right people.
But this roadmap to material success, which probably would have worked if I’d executed it with fine precision, didn’t fulfil me.
Deep down inside, there was a stirring in my heart; it’s always been there. I’d always felt that there was something bigger meant for me – not simply a luxurious lifestyle with constantly upgraded material possessions.
Yes, owning a three-storey landed property in a prestigious neighborhood would definitely be nice. Earning a six-figure salary would be wonderful. Driving around in a posh car would be lovely. Jetsetting around the globe in First Class would certainly be plenty of fun.
Yet these things alone are not the most important.
While chatting with my friend Lena in the weekend, I told her that sometimes it feels weird to have walked off the beaten track and not be in an important job position, unlike most of my former bank colleagues.
Her reply to my words was straightforward and clear, like sunshine after the rain.
“Titles don’t make you. You are Felicia.”
It was the reassurance that I needed – to know that the decisions I’ve made and the routes I’ve chosen, while uncommon and not the most practical, are worthy and valid in their own right.
I’m still trying not to compare my life with that of others, whether friends or strangers alike. Truth be told, it’s not often easy, especially when the difference is stark and wider by the day. So friends like Lena (who remind me that my worth has nothing to do with the number of zeros in my bank account, or the current job title in my LinkedIn profile) are such precious gems.
Ever felt like you’re searching for your destiny, and you’re pretty sure you’re on the right path?
Well, I’m here, searching for mine. I still don’t exactly how life is going to pan out; but then, the fun is in the living of life, and letting our paths unfold, isn’t it?
I do know that writing will have a part to play in my future (whether large or small, I don’t know yet). I am certain that my destiny involves being a positive influence in the lives of others; because why would we only want to live only for ourselves? But apart from this, I don’t know much more.
There’s so much more to be figured out in this life. It’s fun and exciting and terrifying all at once.
In the meanwhile, as we try to figure out this game of life, let’s fill up on these gluten-free chocolate chip cookie bars and focus on what’s important, alright?
These cookie bars are precisely what their name says – bars of cookies which are a mix of cake and cookie in one amazing single bite, chock full of chocolate chips that give just a hint of sweetness to make this dessert-worthy. Or breakfast-worthy. Or anytime snack-worthy.
How about this? Take a big bite, and then you can decide.
I think it sounds like a pretty good game plan for now.
- ½ cup of butter
- 2 cups of gluten-free all purpose flour
- 1½ teaspoons of baking powder
- Pinch of salt
- 1 cup of cane sugar
- 2 teaspoons of pure vanilla extract
- 2 large eggs
- 1 cup of gluten-free semi sweet chocolate chips
- Pre-heat oven to 350 deg Fahrenheit (175 deg Celsius)
- Grease a 9 by 13 inch baking pan with butter
- In a medium saucepan, melt butter over medium heat until it starts turning brown and nutty, then remove from pan and set aside to cool a little
- In a large bowl, mix gluten-free all purpose flour with baking powder
- In another large bowl, mix brown butter with sugar, then add vanilla and eggs one at a time and mix until well combined
- Carefully add in the dry ingredients to the wet ingredients, and stir well until you get an even dough
- Pour ½ cup of chocolate chips into the batter and stir until chocolate chips are evenly distributed
- Press out chocolate chip cookie dough into the pan, making sure you get an even layer
- Press remaining chocolate chips onto the surface of cookie dough and bake for 20 minutes or until the edges turn slightly golden brown
- Allow to cool completely before slicing into bars of your liking